My shadow

I do nothing

But worry 

and fret.

I am a vomit of senseless mental activity.

A complete chasm of insecurity.

I am a house full of clutter

With ghosts walking about 

saying hello.

"hello"

I am a heart full of weight,

the weight of another.

The weight of a man I care for,

Pressing upon me 

Chest pains.

Your name is spilled all over my lips

your face is thrown in my vision all day

images in my mind for viewing.

Your laugh is burned 

into my smile.

I cannot be rid of you.

A chasm filling with greater questions and

greater insecurities.

It is

exhausting. 

This longing in my heart

is bear before me

stretching taller

I am ashamed.

I am torn apart. 

I am afraid

of my shadow.